I am your storm

If it wasn’t going to hurt everyone else so much, I’d be gone by now. And that’s the weird thing. It’s so selfish but I’m not selfish so I can’t do that. Try and explain your struggles and people just say “it’ll be alright. You got this. It’ll get better” and I’m so fucking over it. I feel like I’m in a yearly cycle. Things get too much and I can’t cope. I’m fucking drowning. I just wish I could go back to that place where it was all fine. Because it isn’t fine anymore. I can remember there being a point where I didn’t get overwhelmed and never thought there was only one way out but I can’t remember it at the same time. I remember that this is a new thing, a few years sort of new but I can’t remember how it felt. How it felt to be on top of everything and to not completely buckle under pressure.

I get so scared, I feel like I’m slipping all the time, I might not be but that is how it feels. Like everything is an upward battle but I’ve got no grip, I can just about hold on but I can’t get any higher up, I can’t get up and over the edge. I just keep slipping down and every now and then manage to inch up but I will always slip miles down.

When does it stop?

I should be happy. Things are good but I can’t shake this.

minuty:

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

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vegannerdgirl:

(via violet-dragongirl)

minuty:

“He in his madness prays for storms, and dreams that storms will bring him peace.”

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somecutething:

What a great idea!!

“While trimming the trees, my dad found himself with a lot of dead branches, and knowing from experience how hard it can be to find a good stick, and that the new dog park was opening soon, he had the idea that he would save them and put them in some kind of box.”

(via Metro)

(Source: metro.co.uk, via violet-dragongirl)

minuty:

“You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anyone.”

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(Source: amargedom)